My Last Petal

My failure is only my misery

posted by MarcusLazarus The Last @ 4:53 PM 0 Comments

Wondering....

Every Night, I was thinking about you, I wondered if you thinking abt me too.

Although we live in such small world but yet I felt we are too far apart.

I remembered the first time, we watched the moon together, beside the river where we sat as the light glimpse upon your face. Damn you Look Beautiful!....

But Now as time passer-by, I felt it is impossible for me.....

And I kept wondering..

Wasn't it meant to be?

posted by MarcusLazarus The Last @ 4:39 PM 0 Comments

Before your time is through..

posted by MarcusLazarus The Last @ 4:35 PM 0 Comments

If only....

posted by MarcusLazarus The Last @ 5:45 AM 0 Comments

MY Failure....

I really hate myself....
I studied hard, I try I try and in the end, it is nothing...
Maybe I haven't doned enough....
My GPA is 3.2, a few inch close to 3.5 which at least I can get a chance to make it into POLY.

If I unable to go poly, I have two choices, either Higher Nitec or NS.
Either way by the time I doned, she have graduated and she gone....
And I have no meaning for me to pursue...
The the reason why I pursue is be with her at Nanyang polytechnic...
But those dreams and goals are ashes....

My father and mother advise me not to be too hard on myself.
They say I did my best but I see to myself, it wasn't enough...
My Sisters told me to try and appeal for it..
But I can see the result, I have no chance....

Sigh,
I wished sometime she could see the sacrifices I doned.
Whether is it her or me who is blinded to see...
I wished she could see me that I still love her...
And I wishs that why I still have feelings this ways....

I am sorry if I am pathetic, I am sorry if can't fulfilled my promised,
I am sorry that I saying this even just the starting of a new year...
But I hate myself. I am a failure. I am a Loser.
I wish I could doned better.
I am nothing...

posted by MarcusLazarus The Last @ 5:02 AM 0 Comments