Selamat Hari Raya!!!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!!!
To all my friends and family,
Please forgive me for the things I doned wrong,
And For all the things that I hurt you guys,
Please Forgive me Allah,
I wishs you guys a happy holiday!
Selamat Hari Raya!!!!!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!!!
To all my friends and family,
Please forgive me for the things I doned wrong,
And For all the things that I hurt you guys,
Please Forgive me Allah,
I wishs you guys a happy holiday!
Selamat Hari Raya!!!!!
Journal:Why Still I?
I have close friends, I have brothers, I have my family back together after so long growing up without the presence of my mother. My parents love me, My friends and brothers cares about me and always understand me but why I still feel so lonely. My Heart still feel empty. What more am I still missing?
Rest in peace, MY BELOVED. Allah please forgive me...
Today I lost two of my first pet Chinchillas, Bella and Zacko. I witnessed their fate of death and I felt terrible, I don't know whether it was my fault or is it the previous owner the way they take care of their chinchillas. I only have them for only less than 2 month and they are gone. When I first had them into my house, I already saw that they have suffer some infection as the previous owner kept his chinchillas outside of his house, gave them un-nurition food of their diet and they have suffer a lot of loss fur. I tried to cure them and eventually I thought it was successful until I saw bella yesterday morning, laying on the floor of the cage breathing heavily. I told my brothers to convince my father to bring bella to the vet but they say by the time they arrive at the vet, she passed away. The vet tried to revive her but there is no hope. I felt like I wanna weep when I heard from the phone call from work that she gone... And then today I lost another,Zacko, At first I didn't gave him a name as I always pay attention to bella and I felt terrible and I blamed myself as what kind of owner am I. When i just got back home from work, I saw him laying inside his favorite sand bath, usually he always stand up when he saw me but instead I saw him breathing heavily in same way as bella did. I quickly tried to get him out of the sand box. When I finally did, I looked at his face he about to dying,shocking seeing his intestine sticking out, I felt I wanna cry and pity. I informed my parent and they felt sadden by the look. A few minute later he passed away. I wrapped him with my favorite gym towel and put him in the box, scatter dried roses petals that I brought for him and bella as treat that didn't even manage to give some to bella. I love them but I wished I could spent more time on them as a good owner. I felt sane and blame myself. I didn't even get to hold carry them until they are about to gone on their death bed. I spent and invest more than 100 dollars for my chinchillas and they are gone. What I doned wrong. It my fault for not spending time with them, I really don't know whether it my fault but I felt really terrible and guilty. I wish I would knew what the causes and prevent it.
Please whatever it is please forgive me Allah.
Forgive Me Bella and Zacko
Rest in peace
